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Based on true events.
Tolulope
Brainard sat in front of Dr. Kikelomo with bated breaths. Everything seemed to
be going in slow motion. She was sure that the result in that envelope would
change her life forever, yet she dreaded what it would say. She wanted to pray
but knew that whatever prayer she sent now was too late anyway. It was either
positive or negative.
‘You
are pregnant Tolulope.’ Dr. Kikelomo said. She didn’t just say it with
finality: that would have been nice. Dr. Kikelomo said that with cynicism,
seemingly mocking her predicament.
Tolulope
got up to leave. Dr. Kikelomo stopped her in her tracks.
‘I must
say that I am ashamed of you. How could you have been fornicating all this
while? What a shame you are to the church! You do know I am sending the report
to the pastor so you can be disciplined right?’
Tolulope
looked back at her and turned the door knob. She walked out of the consulting
room and out of the hospital.
As she
wandered the streets in confusion, her life’s choices began to flash
before her.
***
Tolulope
was born into a strong Christian family. She was the youngest girl of four
siblings; one brother and three sisters.
Her
father died when she was five and her mother took up the responsibility of
taking care of them. They were poor; not piss poor, but poor still. Her mother,
if anything, became more religious. She spent all her time reading her Bible,
attending church services, and doing evangelism.
Tolulope
grew up on nothing but the Bible, its edicts, and its teachings. Her mother
drummed morality into all her children, chief of which was staying away from
fornication. Tolulope knew by heart all the Bible verses about sexual sins.
Her
oldest sister – Shayo – was married off to the church choirmaster, Aderopo
Bolaji, when she was 17. He was a middle-class man who worked in the government.
He took the load off Tolulope’s mother by paying most of her bills. As he got
promoted, his burden increased; he became the chief financier of Tolulope’s
family. He trained Tolulope’s siblings until only Tolulope was left.
When
Tolulope got into the university, she maintained her Christian life. She
studied hard, prayed a lot, never missed campus fellowships, and completely
stayed off boys. She did all that until she met Femi.
Femi was
handsome, intelligent, and dedicated to the things of God. He was, in her
definition, the perfect man.
No one
taught her to understand her body and its urges so when she started feeling
things for Femi, she chucked it up to being ‘sinful’. She prayed to God to
deliver her from her feelings and when that didn’t happen, she blamed Him for them.
She found out later that Femi also shared the same feelings and they started
dating…or more appropriately, courting.
They
never spent any time alone together. They always had a chaperone or a friend.
They didn’t want to tempt the devil to cause them to sin.
When they
had dated for two years, Femi proposed and Tolulope said yes. She was elated! She
couldn’t wait to share the happy news. She called her mother and sister Shayo
and they seemed genuinely pleased. God had sent them a good man.
When
Shayo told Aderopo, he flew into a rage. How dare Tolulope date someone? Who
gave her the right to date anyone he had not first approved of? Shayo was
surprised at the anger but since the Bible urged her to submit to her husband,
she soon began to see things in his light.
Aderopo
began to make life harder for Tolulope. He told her to choose between Femi and
continuing her education. When she didn’t listen, he threatened to stop sending
money to their sick mother. Tolulope told Femi everything and they decided to
keep their relationship secret until Shayo’s husband was more cooperative.
Well, she
couldn’t hide it anymore.
***
Carrying
the pregnancy was the hardest thing Tolulope had to do.
Aderopo
beat her every day, maybe hoping she would lose the pregnancy. Shayo joined her
husband in the beatings. They were piling house chores on her when they weren't beating her. They prevented her from going to church because she was, in
their words, a disgrace to their family.
The only
time Tolulope was happy was when she returned to school but even that was a
drag. Her coursemates gave her that how-can-you-be-born-again-and-pregnant
look. She couldn’t explain that she had had sex with Femi in a moment of
weakness and the result had been the baby. She couldn’t explain that she had
prayed to God, begged for His forgiveness, and felt that she deserved the suffering she was facing at
the moment.
Femi’s
mother, who had been so loving when they were introduced, suddenly became a
monster when Femi told her about the pregnancy. She swore that Tolulope was the
corrupting influence on her very Christian
son. She swore that when Tolulope gave birth, she would take ‘their baby’
and be done with her.
Tolulope
was afraid she would lose her child. So every day, she prayed, hoped, and begged
God to let the child be okay and to be able to keep it.
Maybe God
finally took pity on her.
***
Tolulope
had not seen her sister’s family in two years. Since that day when she took out
the IV line from her hand, took her baby, and walked out of the hospital, she
had not even thought of them. She was happy with her beautiful child and even
though she had to hide the effects of Femi’s physical abuse from the
inquisitive eyes (and hands) of her daughter, she was happy.
Oh! She
didn’t tell you? Femi was abusive too. From the moment she turned up at his
door, he took every opportunity to beat her. And he had many excuses; she was a
temptress, she made him sleep with
her, she nearly destroyed his relationship with Christ, she brought disgrace to
him and his family, the baby cried too loudly, she cooked vegetable soup with
goat meat instead of beef or whatever was his pet peeve that day.
Anyone
looking at how much he loved his daughter would never believe he beat the crap
out of her mother.
But
Tolulope took it all. God was punishing her for fornicating and when He was
done with her, He would forgive her and allow her to enjoy her life.
***
Tolulope’s
mother convinced her to go see her sister and her husband. Good Christian
people were supposed to be forgiving after all.
Tolulope
went with just the clothes on her back so she wouldn’t have to stay with her
sister’s family.
When she
arrived at Shayo’s house, she was welcomed like a long-lost family member.
Shayo cooked chicken stew just for Tolulope. Whenever Tolulope wanted to leave,
Shayo and Aderopo would bring up something to keep her. Soon enough, it was
dinner time and Tolulope could not leave that day. She resigned herself to
enjoying this new and accepting front
they displayed. Maybe God had really changed them!
They
talked and laughed and as soon as her nieces were put to bed, her brother-in-law asked to speak to her.
They
retired to the living room, still excited about the reunion. Shayo sat by her
husband, with Tolulope sitting opposite them. Aderopo took his Bible and opened
to Exodus 20:12.
‘Thou
shalt honor thy father and thy mother, so that you may live long in the land
the LORD your GOD is giving you.’
A sense
of fear gripped Tolulope. She tried to brush it aside but it wouldn’t budge.
Aderopo looked at her and she could swear she saw that mean streak again.
‘Since
your father died, I have been feeding you, clothing you, paying your bills, and
giving you everything you wanted. I have been a father to you and you had the
effrontery to have a boyfriend, fornicate with that boyfriend, get pregnant, and
give birth to a bastard child. You even ran away from my house and made me look
like a fool. Now, take this Bible and swear that you will never see that boy or
your child again and you will never leave this house.’
Tolulope’s
pensiveness increased as he spoke. She thought of dashing out of the house but
knew that Shayo had locked the door just as they sat.
‘Take it
and swear!’ Aderopo
screamed. Tolulope shook her head in the negative. As he lunged at her, she
made a quick dash, heading for her room. Her sister chased her up the stairs,
followed closely by her husband.
Tolulope
had barely made it to her room when her sister caught her shirt. She shook her
off and slammed the door in her face. She used her body to hold the door until
she could properly lock it. After that, Tolulope ran to the windows and noticed
that a new feature had been placed there; burglary-proof rods shaped like a
wire mesh. She was willing to risk the jump down but knowing that she could not
use that option made her heart sink in her chest. To escape, she had to go
through them!
The
thought had not finished forming in her head when she heard a heavy thud on the
door. Aderopo was trying to break it down! She looked around and seeing nothing
to barricade the door further, knew her fate was inevitable. Her sister was
screaming and raining curses on her. Aderopo kept pushing and pushing and
pushing.
Tolulope
stood facing the door. She closed her eyes.
The door
gave in.
***
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